Lost and Found

Sunflowers for the Family She Drew · Chapter 6 of 6

Chapter 6

By My Life Story Editorial · Published · Updated

Victor talked.

Not immediately.

For three days he demanded attorneys, denied details, and attempted to blame everyone except himself.

Then investigators showed him the photograph Mara had taken.

They showed him phone records.

Shipping manifests.

Messages from Kessler.

Financial accounts.

Security records proving Victor had disabled cameras near Gideon’s garage.

Finally, they showed him the audio recording from Burnham Harbor.

His own voice.

His own admissions.

Victor’s attorneys stopped smiling.

Daniel Kessler made a deal within forty-eight hours.

The full truth emerged piece by piece.

Victor had not intended to murder Ren.

That fact brought Gideon no comfort.

He had sabotaged Gideon’s SUV because he believed Gideon’s shift toward legitimate business would destroy the criminal network Victor had secretly expanded.

Gideon had planned to use the vehicle for a harbor meeting.

At the last minute, Ren’s nanny took it instead.

Victor learned about Ren only after the crash.

Rather than confess, he helped control the investigation.

He bribed a mechanic.

He removed camera footage.

He pushed the mechanical-failure theory.

And he stood beside Gideon at the funeral while Gideon buried his daughter.

Mara had witnessed enough to destroy him.

So Victor watched her.

Threatened her.

Forced her from job to job.

When she finally contacted a reporter months later, that reporter mysteriously withdrew from the story.

Mara became convinced nobody could protect her.

Not police.

Not Gideon.

Nobody.

Until Victor found her again.

The silver key had opened a small maintenance compartment near Burnham Harbor where Mara discovered documents connecting Victor to illegal shipments.

She had hidden copies elsewhere.

Those records helped prosecutors build a case far larger than Ren’s murder.

Victor Dane had spent years profiting from violence while standing beneath Gideon Crosswell’s protection.

That reality forced Gideon to confront something he could no longer avoid.

Victor was responsible for Ren’s death.

But Gideon had created the world where Victor flourished.

He could not undo that.

He could decide what happened next.

Three weeks after the storm, Gideon sat in his attorney’s office overlooking downtown Chicago.

“You realize what cooperation means,” attorney Samuel Price said.

“Yes.”

“Some of your own operations will be examined.”

“I know.”

“You could lose properties.”

“Yes.”

“Money.”

“Yes.”

“Possibly more.”

Gideon looked through the window.

For twenty years he had spent enormous energy protecting himself from consequences.

Now he felt tired of hiding.

“Do it.”

Samuel leaned back.

“I never thought I’d hear you say that.”

“Neither did I.”

“Why now?”

Gideon thought about answering.

Then he smiled faintly.

“Two hungry girls knocked on my door.”

Samuel waited for more.

Gideon offered none.

At the Crosswell estate, life had changed completely.

Mara and her daughters were no longer hiding.

For the first two weeks, they remained in a secure guest wing while federal authorities arranged protection.

Lucy recovered quickly.

Children sometimes had astonishing ways of returning to joy once fear stopped interrupting everything.

She discovered the mansion kitchen.

Within four days, she had convinced the cook to teach her pancakes.

Within six, she had persuaded three security guards to participate in a tea party.

Within eight, she had renamed Matteo “Uncle Grumpy.”

Matteo pretended to hate it.

Everyone knew he did not.

Nora was different.

She remained watchful.

She checked windows twice.

She listened when cars arrived.

At dinner she occasionally wrapped bread in napkins and hid it in her pockets.

Gideon noticed.

He did not embarrass her.

Instead, he placed a small basket of snacks in the guest room.

A handwritten card sat beside it.

YOU NEVER HAVE TO SAVE FOOD HERE.

The next morning, he found a note outside his office.

I KNOW.

I JUST NEED TIME.

—NORA

He kept it.

Mara recovered slowly.

Her injuries healed faster than her fear.

For years she had been looking over her shoulder.

Now she had to learn how to stop.

One afternoon Gideon found her in the greenhouse.

Repairs had begun after the fire.

New glass panels reflected sunlight.

Workers had rebuilt the north wall.

Mara stood beside Ren’s stone angel.

“I thought you might tear this place down,” she said.

“I almost did.”

“Why didn’t you?”

Gideon looked at the restored flower beds.

“Because Ren loved it.”

Mara nodded.

“She did.”

Gideon hesitated.

“Tell me about her.”

Mara turned.

“What?”

“The things I didn’t know.”

She smiled sadly.

“There were a lot.”

“I’m beginning to realize that.”

Mara sat on a wooden bench.

Gideon sat beside her.

“She hated peas.”

“I knew that.”

“She fed them to Nora.”

Nora, passing nearby, shouted, “I hated them too!”

For the first time in months, Gideon laughed.

A real laugh.

Mara stared.

“What?”

“Nothing.”

“You looked surprised.”

“I forgot I could do that.”

Her expression softened.

She began telling stories.

Ren had once filled every watering can with soap because she wanted to “wash the flowers.”

She had named a caterpillar Mr. Jonathan.

She had tried to plant jelly beans.

She had declared herself president of the Happy Flowers Club and made Nora vice president.

“Lucy?”

“Official snack inspector.”

Gideon smiled.

Then Mara became quiet.

“She talked about you constantly.”

His smile faded.

“What did she say?”

“That you worked too much.”

Gideon nodded.

“She was right.”

“But she never doubted you loved her.”

He looked away.

Mara continued.

“She said you could fix anything.”

“I couldn’t fix what mattered.”

“No.”

The honesty hurt.

But Gideon appreciated it.

Mara did not offer the comforting lie that he had done everything perfectly.

She said something better.

“You loved her. And you failed sometimes. Both can be true.”

Gideon looked at her.

“That sounds like something you’ve told yourself.”

“Every day.”

Her eyes moved toward Nora and Lucy.

“I should have gone to police sooner.”

“You were threatened.”

“I still waited.”

“You were protecting your children.”

“And you were protecting an empire.”

Gideon accepted that.

Mara looked at him.

“We both lived scared.”

The feared Mafia boss of Chicago almost argued.

Then realized she was right.

Gideon had not feared bullets.

He had feared losing control.

Feared appearing weak.

Feared loving anyone enough to lose them.

Ren’s death had proven those fears useless.

Mara reached into her coat.

“I found something.”

She handed him an envelope.

“What is it?”

“Ren’s.”

Gideon opened it.

Inside was a drawing.

Ren had drawn a huge yellow sun.

Beneath it stood five stick figures.

Gideon recognized himself because the figure wore a black suit.

Beside him stood Ren.

Then Mara.

Nora.

Lucy.

Above them, Ren had written:

EVERYBODY NEEDS A FAMILY.

Gideon could not speak.

Mara touched his arm.

“She drew it a month before she died.”

“Why didn’t you give it to me?”

“I was afraid.”

He nodded.

“I understand.”

Mara stood to leave.

Gideon remained on the bench holding the picture.

That evening he drove to the cemetery.

This time he did not go alone.

Nora carried six sunflowers.

Lucy carried six more.

Mara carried one.

Gideon carried none.

When they reached Ren’s grave, Lucy carefully placed her flower against the stone.

“Hi, Ren.”

Nora crouched.

“We found him.”

Gideon looked at her.

Nora pointed at him.

“You said your daddy would help if we ever got lost.”

Gideon’s throat tightened.

Ren had told them that?

Nora continued speaking to the grave.

“You were right.”

Gideon turned away briefly.

Mara took his hand.

He did not pull away.

After a while, Lucy looked at the flowers.

“They can’t follow the sun here.”

Gideon crouched beside her.

“They don’t have to.”

“Why?”

“Because the sun comes back.”

Lucy considered that.

Then she smiled.

“So they just wait?”

Gideon looked toward the cloudy winter sky.

“Sometimes.”

And for the first time since Ren died, Gideon left the cemetery without feeling he had abandoned her there.

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