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The Errand Left Unfinished · Chapter 5 of 15

What She Told Ruth

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Marion had written Ruth’s appointment on the kitchen calendar in blue ink: Thursday, three, Nora. She saw it every time she reached for the telephone. The arrangement was simple. Ruth would bring Nora after school, leave her for supper, and collect her when the appointment was finished. Marion had promised soup and toasted cheese, followed by a game Nora could win without assistance. It was not a favor extracted under pressure. She had offered, partly because she wanted one afternoon to go exactly as she had said it would.

By Thursday the sewing had backed up again. A customer needed trousers before a trip, and Marion had discovered a crooked seam in a jacket she thought was ready. She had slept poorly, listening to Frank turn over beside her and wondering whether he was awake too. After lunch she sat down to rest her eyes before starting the soup. When the doorbell woke her, daylight had shifted across the carpet. The saucepan was empty. Her work still covered the chair where Nora usually put her schoolbag.

Ruth stood on the step with Nora beside her. One glance past Marion was enough. “Did you forget?” she asked. Marion said no, then heard how useless that distinction was. Remembering an appointment while failing to prepare for it did not make her dependable. Nora held up a folded sheet from school, but Ruth was already looking at her watch. Marion offered to order something, offered to clear the table, offered several things too quickly. Ruth took Nora into the kitchen and found a glass for water.

“I can still keep her,” Marion said quietly. “You look exhausted.” Ruth lowered her own voice. “What is happening?” Marion began with the jacket, then stopped. There had been a jacket at the center of too many explanations lately. She asked Nora to choose a book from the shelf in the front room. When the child had gone, Marion took the envelope from the drawer where she had moved it after the argument with Frank. She did not hand it over immediately. “There’s something I should have told you before.”

She explained the supermarket picture, the former Denver neighbor, the name Thomas Reed. She told Ruth that the published account concerned a man named Edwin Vale and five deaths in Westfield. Before Ruth could ask the question forming on her face, Marion said she had no proof that the two names belonged to one person. It was a resemblance. She had shown the image to Frank, and afterward she had raised it privately with Alice. She described her own approach, not Alice’s answer, and laid the envelope between them.

Ruth did not pick it up. “This is why you were late before?” “It was what had upset me.” “But you let me think you’d just lost track of time.” Marion pressed her palms against her skirt. She had imagined that telling would put the earlier failure into proportion. Instead it gave Ruth another fact to resent. “I didn’t know how to say it without sounding foolish.” “So I was supposed to make plans without knowing you weren’t all right?” From the other room came the soft slap of Nora closing a book.

Marion asked Ruth to keep the matter private. As soon as she said it, Ruth pushed back from the table. “You don’t tell me what’s happening, and now I’m responsible for not telling anyone else?” “I only mean we don’t know.” “Then say that. But don’t make me part of something after you’ve already decided what everyone is allowed to hear.” Marion had no answer that would not sound like another rule. She looked toward the doorway, wishing to see Nora there and equally wishing the child would stay away.

Ruth telephoned from the hall and changed her arrangements. Marion heard only the practical part: a request for help, an apology for the short notice, a time confirmed. Afterward Ruth said another mother could take Nora on Thursdays for a while. “You don’t have to do that,” Marion said. Ruth put the receiver down carefully. “I do have to know where she’ll be.” It was not punishment, Marion told herself. That made it harder to argue with. She began gathering the sewing from the chair, though nobody needed the space now.

Nora came back carrying two books and asked whether she should leave one for next time. Marion said yes, choosing the thinner one without reading its title. Ruth helped her daughter into her coat, then returned to the kitchen drawer where Marion kept envelopes, stamps, and school notices. Beneath the rubber bands lay the spare pickup card. Ruth lifted it out, checked that it was the right one, and slipped it into her purse.

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