The stagecoach hit the final rut so hard that Abigail Whitaker's shoulder slammed against the wooden wall.
Nobody apologized.
After seventeen days of dust, cramped seats, bad food, and strangers pretending not to stare at her, Abigail had stopped expecting kindness from anyone.
The driver hauled the reins.
“Bitter Creek!”
Abigail's heart jumped.
For nearly two thousand miles, she had imagined this moment.
Sometimes Gideon Miller was waiting for her with disappointment written across his face.
Sometimes he laughed.
Sometimes he simply looked her over and said there had been a mistake.
In none of her imaginings did he smile.
Abigail gathered her reticule, smoothed the dark blue dress stretched across her broad hips, and reminded herself of the letter inside the little bag.
She practically knew Gideon's words by heart.
I need a wife who can withstand the winters. No delicate flowers. I live high up. It is cold. I am not a gentleman. If you can work, I will provide.
There had been nothing romantic about it.
That was why Abigail had answered.
At thirty-two, she had learned to distrust romantic promises.
Men who spoke prettily often laughed cruelly when their friends were near.
Men who claimed to admire a woman's heart still expected her body to fit whatever picture they carried in their heads.
So Abigail had written honestly.
I am not delicate. I am stout, and I am accustomed to being overlooked. I can cook, mend, and keep a fire. If you do not expect a beauty, I will not expect a prince.
Three weeks later, Gideon had written back.
Come before the first snow.
That had been the closest thing to an invitation Abigail had received in years.
Now she stepped down from the coach into Bitter Creek, Wyoming, and immediately felt every eye in the street settle on her.
A woman outside the general store whispered something to her companion.
Two men near the hitching rail glanced toward Abigail and then toward each other.
A boy stared openly.
Abigail's old instincts rose at once.
Straighten your shoulders.
Don't react.
Don't give them the satisfaction.
She had spent a lifetime learning how to behave as though cruelty did not hurt.
Then a shadow fell across the dirt in front of her.
Abigail slowly turned.
The man standing there was enormous.
Not simply tall.
Massive.
His shoulders strained the worn canvas coat he wore over a dark shirt. Thick brown hair touched his collar, and a heavy beard sharpened a face weathered by snow, wind, and long years outdoors.
His eyes were pale gray.
They moved over Abigail once.
Her throat tightened.
Here it comes.
The pause lasted barely a second.
“Abigail?”
She blinked.
“Yes.”
“You brought the trunk?”
That was not what she had expected.
She nodded toward the stagecoach.
“Yes.”
Gideon walked past her, gripped the iron-banded trunk that had required two men to load in Pennsylvania, and swung it onto his shoulder.
Abigail stared.
He started toward a wagon.
Then he looked back.
“Coming?”
“Yes. Of course.”
She hurried after him.
There was no insult.
No grimace.
No complaint that she was larger than he had imagined.
Somehow, the absence of cruelty made Abigail more nervous than cruelty would have.
Cruelty she understood.
Kindness was dangerous because kindness created hope.
The wagon seat sat high above the ground.
Abigail gripped the side and tried to climb.
Her boot slipped.
She caught herself before falling, but embarrassment burned across her face.
“I can manage.”
Before she could try again, two hands settled firmly around her waist.
Abigail froze.
Gideon lifted her.
Just lifted her.
As though her weight meant nothing.
For one terrible instant she waited for a grunt, a joke, or some expression of strain meant to remind her that she was too much.
None came.
Gideon placed her on the seat.
Then he climbed beside her.
Abigail stared straight ahead.
“Thank you.”
He clicked his tongue at the mules.
“You're welcome.”
Three hours followed in near silence.
The town disappeared behind them.
Prairie became foothills.
Foothills became steep country covered in dark pine.
Abigail tried several times to begin conversation.
Each time, Gideon answered politely but briefly.
She finally stopped.
Every bump in the trail made her shoulder or hip touch his.
Each time it happened, she apologized.
“Sorry.”
After the sixth apology, Gideon turned slightly.
“The road did it.”
Abigail looked at him.
“What?”
“You keep saying sorry when the wagon hits a hole. You're not driving.”
Heat touched her cheeks.
“I suppose it's a habit.”
“Bad habit.”
She almost smiled.
“I'm afraid I have several.”
“So do I.”
That was the longest exchange they had managed.
As the wagon climbed, the afternoon heat disappeared.
Cold air settled around them.
Abigail's fingers stiffened.
She wanted to ask for the blanket rolled beneath the seat, but she stopped herself.
She had crossed half a continent to become useful to this man.
She would not arrive complaining.
Gideon glanced sideways.
“You're shivering.”
“I'm fine.”
Without argument, he reached behind them, pulled out the blanket, and placed it across her lap.
Abigail looked down.
“Thank you.”
“Cold doesn't care whether you're polite.”
Something about the sentence stayed with her.
By twilight, the trail narrowed between towering pines.
Then Gideon's cabin appeared.
It stood alone beneath the mountains, made of enormous logs darkened by weather. Smoke curled weakly from a stone chimney. A fenced pasture stretched behind it toward a stable and small barn.
There were no neighbors.
No town lights.
No church bell.
Nothing but forest, sky, and a house that looked as though it had been built to resist the end of the world.
Gideon stopped the wagon.
“This is it.”
Abigail looked at the cabin.
“It's beautiful.”
He actually frowned.
“It's a box with a roof.”
“Yes,” she said. “But it's a sturdy box.”
A corner of his mouth moved.
Not quite a smile.
But close.
Inside, the cabin was simple.
One large room.
An iron stove.
A bed against the far wall.
A table with two chairs.
Shelves stacked with flour, coffee, salt, dried beans, tools, ammunition, jars, and medicine.
Everything had a purpose.
Nothing existed merely because it was pretty.
“I'll tend the mules,” Gideon said.
Abigail nodded.
The door closed behind him.
She stood alone.
Silence filled the room.
Then the panic began.
What if he was disappointed and simply too polite to say so?
What if he regretted writing her?
What if he waited until morning and told her to leave?
Abigail's gaze moved around the cabin.
She saw dust near the stove.
A coat with a torn seam.
A stack of dishes.
Coffee.
Salt pork.
A broom.
Prove your worth.
The thought came automatically.
She fed wood into the stove.
She filled the kettle.
She found coffee.
She carried water.
Then she seized the broom and began sweeping with desperate energy.
When Gideon returned, Abigail was attacking the floor as though dirt itself had insulted her family.
He stopped inside the doorway.
“I found the coffee,” she said.
Gideon removed his gloves.
“All right.”
“I can fry the salt pork.”
“All right.”
“I make good biscuits too.”
“Abigail—”
“And that coat needs mending. I brought strong thread.”
He looked toward the coat.
“So it does.”
“I can fix it tonight.”
“It doesn't need fixing tonight.”
Her pulse accelerated.
“No, but I don't mind. I can work quickly.”
“Abigail.”
“I know the journey took longer than expected, but I'm not usually tired.”
“Abigail.”
“I can keep a house. My mother taught me. I worked for Mrs. Bellamy for six years, and before that I helped at—”
“Abigail.”
His deeper tone stopped her for half a second.
She gripped the broom tighter.
“I promise I'm a hard worker.”
Gideon did not answer immediately.
His silence became unbearable.
Abigail's throat closed.
“I know I don't look like much.”
His brow furrowed.
“And I don't eat as much as my size suggests.”
Something changed in his face.
Abigail barely noticed.
“I won't waste your stores. I know winters are hard here. I'll earn everything I use.”
“Stop.”
“I can—”
“Abigail.”
Tears burned behind her eyes.
Not now.
Please, not now.
She swept faster.
“I'll be useful.”
“Put the broom down.”
“I just need to finish.”
The broom caught beneath a raised nail.
The handle drove into Abigail's stomach.
She stumbled.
The broom crashed against the floor.
And something inside her broke.
She covered her face.
The first sob escaped before she could swallow it.
Then another.
Then years of humiliation poured out at once.
Men laughing at church socials.
Women offering diet advice she had never asked for.
Her aunt telling her no decent husband wanted “a woman who took up half a doorway.”
A shopkeeper once asking whether she needed twice the fabric because she intended to make two dresses.
Every insult she had pretended not to hear.
Every meal she had eaten too slowly so no one would accuse her of greed.
Every chair she had examined before sitting because she feared it might break.
Every room she had entered already apologizing for occupying space.
Now she was in Wyoming, crying in front of the stranger she was supposed to marry.
Her first evening.
Ruined.
“I am sorry,” she whispered.
Gideon did not move.
That frightened her more.
“Please don't send me back.”
His boots crossed the floor.
Abigail squeezed her eyes shut.
He stopped in front of her.
Several seconds passed.
Then his voice changed.
It became quieter.
“You don't have to pretend.”
Abigail slowly lowered her hands.
“What?”
Gideon's face held no disgust.
“You've been pretending since Bitter Creek.”
She stared at him.
“You don't have to pretend you're not tired.”
Her mouth trembled.
“You don't have to pretend you're not frightened.”
A tear rolled down her cheek.
“And you don't have to earn supper tonight.”
Abigail's knees nearly failed.
The sob that followed was worse.
She covered her mouth.
Gideon did not grab her.
He did not order her to stop.
He simply remained there.
Present.
Unmoving.
Safe.
For perhaps the first time in her life, Abigail cried in front of a man who did not demand that she become quieter, prettier, smaller, or easier to tolerate.
Eventually the tears slowed.
She wiped her cheeks.
“You expected someone different.”
“No.”
“You can't mean that.”
“I read your letter six times.”
He walked to the stove and poured coffee into two tin cups.
“You told me exactly who was coming.”
He handed her one.
Abigail wrapped both hands around it.
“I needed somebody who could survive this mountain,” he said. “Somebody who understood work.”
His gray eyes held hers.
“I didn't send for a decoration, Abigail.”
Something painful moved through her chest.
Not hurt.
Something more dangerous.
Hope.
She looked down at the coffee.
“Then why me?”
Silence.
This time Gideon's silence felt different.
Heavy.
Abigail slowly raised her eyes.
For the first time since meeting him, Gideon looked uncertain.
His gaze shifted toward the bed.
Under it sat a locked wooden chest.
Then he looked back at her.
“Because your letter wasn't the first time I'd seen your name.”
The cabin suddenly seemed colder.
Abigail forgot the coffee.
“What does that mean?”
Gideon's jaw tightened.
He walked to the chest, knelt, and unlocked it.
From inside he removed an envelope.
Old.
Yellowed.
Creased by years of handling.
Abigail's breath stopped.
She knew the handwriting.
Her fingers lost feeling.
“No.”
Gideon rose.
Abigail stared at the envelope.
She had not seen that handwriting in fourteen years.
Not since the morning her father disappeared from Pennsylvania.
“Where did you get that?”
Gideon looked down at it.
“A dying man gave it to me three winters ago.”
The cup rattled in Abigail's hands.
“My father?”
Gideon did not answer immediately.
That was answer enough.
Across the front of the envelope was her name.
ABIGAIL WHITAKER
And beneath it, in Caleb Whitaker's unmistakable handwriting, were five words.
DO NOT LET HER KNOW.
Abigail stared at Gideon.
Her fear of rejection disappeared.
Something far worse replaced it.
Because suddenly she understood one terrible truth.
Gideon Miller had not discovered her through a matrimonial advertisement by accident.
Someone had been waiting for Abigail Whitaker to come west long before she ever agreed to become a mail-order bride.
And whatever her father had tried to hide from her had followed her all the way to Wyoming.
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